I felt like I was loosing control of the kids today. Or maybe they are just getting tired of me. Or maybe we are all just tired and a little burned out. I don’t know. It’s a long year with no breaks – so who knows? Journals have been a battle this week. We help them sound out the words so they can write what their picture is…but over the past couple days they seem to have forgotten all their letter sounds! All I get is blank stares and “I don’t knows.” It is sooo frustrating and annoying. I. am. done. That’s what goes through my head during journals. And then I feel like a horrible teacher. I shouldn’t be thinking that.
Then at circle time no one is paying attention. They find anything else to pay attention to. I mean anything. Some look at the ceiling. Others were looking at their hands and fingers like they had never seen them before. A couple girls were shaking their heads and giggling when their hair hit them in the face. Others were pulling strings out of their clothes. And that’s just the beginning. Once again I thought: I. am. done.
This makes me frustrated. The whole day went by like this. I feel like I’m loosing control – like I’m loosing them. Like I’m a failure because suddenly what has been working up til now is failing me and I can’t keep them engaged. I wish we got a break – I think we could all use one! Hopefully tomorrow goes better.